FOMO, 2018 Makeup Ban, Content Creators…Not Creating Actual Content

Well friends, in 13 minutes it will be Blue Monday here in Saskatchewan. I hope you are well, and surviving all that January brings!

I have currently gone 19 days without buying makeup, which I am quite excited about. Looking at my Sephora order history in the past I’ve had a tendency to buy makeup at least every two weeks if not every week, so I think this is progress! I recently moved and with the hassle of moving, I realized how much of my collection I don’t actually want or need. When I move I tend to unpack things as I need them, and there’s a chunk of my makeup collection still buried in a moving container somewhere that I’ve had no desire to dig up. As I was unpacking my favourite items too I found myself throwing lipsticks and mascaras out left and right, as I didn’t want them in my new space at all. I’ve been tempted a few times to place an order or check out new products as friends tag me in them, but each time I see something new my mind instantly reminds me that I already have like three of nearly the exact same product and I quickly back away from that idea. Even just scrolling through Sephora, I haven’t really felt that same “I need that!” urge in awhile. I feel that I owe that partially to social media beauty gurus, as lately I’ve felt really overwhelmed by their unboxing videos and product reviews. Lately even local MUAs have been getting more and more into unboxing videos, particularly on Instagram, and I’ve wasted so much time watching them. The one morning I sat through about five different Instagram stories that were just MUAs or makeup enthusiasts unboxing PR packages they had been sent and saying vague statements like “This is from *such and such company* in collaboration with *so and so* and I’ve heard such great things about it!”, and I just got fed up. How are these videos helping me in anyway? They’re repeating the same useless comments over and over, and just showing products that I either don’t give a damn about or I’m already aware of. It’s less informative than a professional advertisement, and far less helpful than a genuine review. There are just so many other ways in which I could be better spending my time, whether it be practicing my own makeup skills, messaging a friend, sleeping, hanging out with my tortoise, reading, writing, etc. In a way I’m almost grateful, because this product overload and spammy unboxing content has kind of scared me away from enjoying the idea of makeup shopping right now.

In fact, this sort of sponsorship overload minus actual quality content has me really sick of social media in general. Instagram is filled with product ads on personal accounts and skin clinic sponsorships, and then Twitter is filled with really horrifying political news and misogynistic posts from people who I previously considered to be admirable authors. Facebook is a strange mix of politics and memes. I guess that with makeup purchases consuming less of my addictive little brain’s focus, I’m becoming more aware of my gross social media consumption habits are. I downloaded an app that tracks how many minutes a day you spend on your phone, and ended up deleting it because I was really embarrassed. Not even 3/4 of the way through the day and I had already spent 5+hours staring at my phone. Ridiculous, really. I’ve tried to deactivate and delete in the past, but the fear of missing out (FOMO) has always dragged me back kicking and screaming. If I delete twitter then I miss out on mental health advocacy chatter, #CanLit drama, daily news, and snippets from my hometown. If I delete Facebook I miss out on family updates from family members I never see (I have too many relatives to be able to realistically text/call/write/email them all and keep up with their lives that way), my tortoise keeping groups, meme tags, and pictures of local cats that have been rescued. If I delete Instagram I lose all of the makeup and pet accounts I follow, as well as updates from long distance friends. Do I come up with a system that will enable me to keep up with all these different people and communities but allows me to go offline? Do I limit my screen time, despite numerous failed attempts to do this in the past? Do I quit cold turkey and suck it up? I don’t yet know what the right answer is.

Have any of you cut back on social media? How did you do it and what tools did you use?

Makeup Buy Ban, Minimalism, and other 2018 Resolutions

If there is any one thing in the world that makes me want to downsize and quit shopping, it is moving. It’s one of the few activities this world has to offer in which you have to come to terms with every single belonging you own. As I unpack in my apartment I find myself chucking things and piling items up to donate because I just have an overwhelming amount of stuff.

The whole moving process was a bit of a gongshow. We’ve had -35C weather and colder here the past week or so, with temperatures only beginning to warm up yesterday. Moving in this frigid weather was an exhausting experience in and of itself, and I am so relieved that I had my family and partner to help me! After going through all of that, and STILL not having unpacked everything days later, I contemplate accumulating more stuff with a sense of dread. I thought that it would kill me to not be able to buy makeup, but I just feel disgusted by the thought of bringing even more items into this apartment right now. I’m sure this resolution will be harder to keep up as time goes on, but right now, it’s an easy one.

I have so many resolutions for 2018, and I feel like most of them are achievable. I want to be more financially responsible so that I can afford to go back to Montreal with my friend this summer, I want to decrease my belongings by 25%, I want to withhold from buying makeup until 2019, and I want to take better care of myself. I just started Yoga with Adriene’s TRUE 30 day challenge and I’m determined to make it all the way through this year. I’m a day behind because of my delayed wifi activation, but that’s not the end of the world.

I feel like 2018 will be the year I trim off the excess and focus in on what I actually need and actually want to do. I’m going to quit agreeing to things to please people, and say no without feeling guilty or obligated to give a reason. It’s going to be great, friends.

What are your resolutions for 2018? I hope all is well.

Self Care for Retail Workers

Working retail has probably been one of the most physically and emotionally challenging and draining things I’ve ever done, even if I have really enjoyed most of my retail working experiences. Even when you’re working in a super healthy environment, it can be really easy to get run down and burnt out. Here are some self care ideas that have worked for me, and that you are welcome to try!

  1. Invest in your feet. Love your feet. Take care of your feet. You are on your feet all day and if your feet aren’t properly supported and taken care of, you’re going to end up with all sorts of other aches and pains too.

    I used to just wear cheap black flats to all of my retail sort of jobs, and found that my feet hurt too much and I was wearing out my shoes and having to replace them after only 3-5 months. I thought I was saving money by buying cheaper shoes, but it ended up hurting me and my wallet in the long run. With my most recent retail position I invested in a good pair of all black athletic shoes with good support, and I have not regretted it. Because my shoes were so comfy and fit the dress code perfectly, my manager and a few other coworkers went out and bought the exact same shoes! I also bought mine in half a size larger than what I normally wear, but can still comfortably wear, as my feet swell so much during the day. For me, this helped reduce the amount of blistering I got.

    Pedicures are super expensive, but it can be nice to give yourself an at home foot scrub and soak when you’re able to. You can get decent foot products for relatively cheap that will last a long time. I’m a huge fan of Gehwol products personally. I use their foot anti-perspirant in the morning before putting on my work socks, and I leave the Gehwol foot and shoe deodorant in our back stock room for myself and my coworkers to use.

  2. Detox from customer comments and general work chaos at the end of your day.  Anyone who has worked retail knows that customers can often be really rude and condescending, particularly during the holidays and/or if they don’t get their way. It can be really easy to internalize negative comments made by customers, or even management or your coworkers, but if you let that build up it’s going to wear you out so quickly. I find that their negative comments hit me the hardest, because I can’t simply retort “You can’t treat me like a dumbass! I’m more educated than you will ever be! You have no idea what you’re even talking about!” to a customer unless you really truly want to get fired on the spot, and not being able to respond just fuels my inner rage, resentment, and sometimes even depressive feelings if I’m not self-aware.  I like to take a moment at the end of each shift to just take a few deep breaths and let all those anxious feelings disperse. If I’m still a bit riled up and I have the time, I’ll go home and take 30 min to an hour to just lay in bed and zone out with a book or Youtube and reset for the rest of my day.
  3. Stay hydrated and always have snacks! I always underestimate how much staying hydrated and fuelled up helps me get through my day until I skip breakfast or forsake my water bottle for a few hours. I keep a water bottle at work and granola bars stashed in the staff room and my car so that I never have to worry about forgetting them.

Hope all my fellow retail workers are doing well this holiday season, take care!!

Project Pan April 2018: Check In #6

What I’ve managed to cross off my list:

  1. Maybelline Master Prime 300 Redness + Blur Control
  2. Tarte Rainforest of the Sea Foundation
  3. Tarteist Contour Palette (mostly used, then expired)
  4. Laura Mercier Eye Primer Mini
  5. UD Naked 3 Palette (half used, then expired)
  6. Bare Minerals Mascara Mini
  7. ABH Brow Pencil
  8. L’Oreal Infallible Setting Spray

What remains:

  1. Tarte Rainforest of the Sea Concealer
  2. Sephora Brand Bronzer
  3. Becca Luminous Blush in Brushed Copper
  4. Rituel de Fille Ghost Light Luminizer
  5. Hourglass Ambient Lighting Mood Light
  6. Essence Make Me Brow

All in all, I’m making progress. I’ve had a couple of duds, but a couple of products have grown on me. I wasn’t the hugest fan of the Rainforest of the Sea concealer for awhile, but I’m beginning to like it again.

Outside of my goal project pan products, I’ve always used up these in the past week or so:


I don’t mind the Infallible setting spray, but the spray on it is a bit aggressive and can leave your face quite wet if you’re not careful. Young Living, as we all know, is trash, and I’m getting close to using up all of my old products of theirs. I think I’ve got about four bottles of essential oils left from them, and then I should be good. I recently learned a lot of terrifying information about the founder of YL that includes everything from false medical practices to drowned babies, and if even half of it is true, then I am even more embarrassed for having supported this company in any way. I adore how fluffy and smooth the OleHenriksen Transform Sheer Transformation Perfecting Moisturizer is! I nearly bought it to use as a night moisturizer today, but I opted for a product from my workplace instead (gotta love work discounts!). The Clinique pep-start sample moisturizer was pretty good, but Clinique does unfortunately test on animals so I avoid buying from them. The Biophora Light Hydration Serum was pretty decent, and I had no complaints! It didn’t really stand out to me, but it definitely got the job done.

Today I caved did a bit of Boxing Day shopping, but after today I think that’s it for makeup shopping until 2019. I’m excited and terrified to see how long I can last in a year-long no buy and how it will change my perspective on what I currently own, my social media consumption, my bank balance, and even my conversations with makeup-loving friends.

Fungal Acne: I needed this video a year ago!

About a year ago I got this weird rashy breakout on my forehead, and I could not figure out what to do about it. I worked at a spa at the time and the estheticians just told me it was likely a stress rash, and told me to keep using the acne products that I had from there. Eventually it did clear up, but it was really quite stubborn and caused me a lot of grief. Not to mention it was unbelievably frustrating because I didn’t know specifically what it was or how to fix it.

Then this video popped up on my subscriptions feed last night, and I knew instantly that this had to be what I had on my forehead last year. I can’t say for certain obviously that it was for sure fungal acne, as it was never diagnosed by a dermatologist, but the pictures, causes, and symptoms all align with my experience of it.

I am so grateful for Youtubers like Liah Yoo who work so hard to do their research and do more than recommend whatever expensive skin care line is trendiest at the moment. I wish I had known how to treat fungal acne last year!! At least this time around I am prepared in case it ever comes back full force.

No Makeup Resolution 2018: A Year Without Buying Makeup (AKA, an attempt at the near impossible)

I have made it a New Years’ Resolution to not buy any makeup (with a few, limited exceptions) in the entire year of 2018.

A lot of things have contributed to deciding upon this very intimidating goal. In the past few months I have realized how impossible it is to use up the astounding amount of makeup I have accumulated without it going bad. As well, lately I have been making some really stupid purchases and have been using really dumb excuses to justify them. For example, the other day I ordered not one, but two mini lipstick sets (so 12 mini lipsticks in total) from Besame because I had a $10 Sephora gift card from Honey. I already have 40+ lipsticks, and probably did not need 12 more. I justified it because I had the gift card, and had lost one of my favourite Besame lipsticks in 1930 Noir Red, and one of the sets had the Noir Red in it. Literally the dumbest reason in the word, but here I am $80 and 12 lipsticks later.

It feels unhealthy to be spending this much money impulsively on makeup, and simply cutting back doesn’t really seem to be changing my makeup spending habits. I’m running out of storage room, I’m occasionally overwhelmed by the choices I have when getting ready, and again, I’ll never be able to use it all up. Hence, no makeup purchases for 2018.

There are a few exceptions to this rule! I am allowed to purchase the following, but only if I am entirely out of them: liquid foundation, concealer, setting spray, primer, mascara, and grandelash lash enhancing serum. Even then, with the amount of those products that I already have, I may not even need to purchase those.

I think it could be helpful to quit cold turkey and see where it gets me. It’d be incredible to make it the entire year, but, even if I do fail, I’m still looking forward to seeing how long I can last.

In order to try and make this resolution stick, I’m doing a number of things. I’ve unfollowed almost all makeup brands on Instagram, I will be deleting the Sephora app, I may block Sephora on my web browser, and I will be removing my credit card information from my Sephora account. I’m hoping too that by sharing this on my blog, I will have to be held accountable for this goal, as I have told others about it. I want to put this money towards saving for future trips and adopting a cat, so I’m praying that that will motivate me to stay on track.

Do y’all have any makeup related resolutions for 2018? I’m curious to hear them!